Possession

It’s human nature, isn’t it? To want. To keep. To guard. Everyone wants something solely their own. Everyone wants something that belongs to them, only to them. Everyone does… and I want you.

I want you to be mine. Only mine. Forever mine. Don’t look at anyone else. Don’t see anything but me. Be mine.

I think this, and wonder… is that so wrong? So gross and vulgar? I do not think so… and yet, I think it all the same.

I am not, however, so unfeeling to take you from yourself without your consent. I do not want to take you. I want to own you. And I want you to give yourself to me… I want you to want this as much as I do.

Is that so wrong?

Is wanting to spend every minute of every hour of every day with you so very, very wrong? I think not, and yet, I think it all the same.

I wonder if you feel this too, the charge in the air between us when we are close, too close, but not nearly close enough. Do you feel me when my hand lingers a little too long, brushes a little too low? I wonder, do you feel the lust between us? The need to be closer, so much closer… I feel like my very being is screaming out for you, can you not hear it? I am deaf with it’s cries in my ears… so why do you stand so close, but not nearly close enough?

I want you.

I want you more than I have ever wanted anything else…

It hurts.

It hurts so badly, that I wonder if this is what it is like to rip your heart in two.

I want you.

But, do you want me?

I need you.

Do you need me?

I feel this.

Do you feel me?

I don’t know what to do. There are so many things I don’t know.

Do you like me?

Do you hate me?

I don’t know.

Why wont you say anything? Why wont you tell me what I need to hear…?

I want you.

Do you want me?

I want to own you.

Will you give yourself to me?

Is this so wrong?

I think not, and yet, I think it all the same.

Tell me.

It’s human nature.

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Published:: May 18, 2008 / UTC4605UTC p20082531UTC18:

Category:: About Me, Cryptic

Tags:: bisexual, lust, need, possession, rant, right, want, wrong

cluelessclo 5.18.08 / 11pm

Wow wow wow wow wow. You wrote this? Holy crap! This is amazing…and sad.

This is how you feel…about Beth? Or…who?

I had no idea.

cluelessclo 5.19.08 / 1am

And Hannah, huh? Hmmm….

I’m glad that maybe people are discovering it. ^-^

cluelessclo 5.19.08 / 9pm

RE RE Jealousy.

^-^ When we get together, I’ll force-feed you some.

~Clo

RE RE Mother

Wow. You should tell her how you feel though. I mean, it might not be the bad the to do. She might take it the wrong way, but it would be good to make her understand (at least partially) what you’re going through.

Alas, I seem to cry too much — maybe I am crying for both of us, that’s why my waterworks seem to be running full-blast a lot of the time. My dad was wondering why and I just said I was stressed about that paper I was working on — whatever makes him go away…

RE RE Possesion

Well… That’s interesting. I definitely think Beth might have a thing for you — Hannah, I think, is clueless.

I’m sure it is. I know you prolly don’t want to hear this, but you should tell them eventually. Maybe even tell Jacob first if that helps. It might make it easier if you have a sibling to help hold you up and be supportive.

OOOOOOOO. That sounds like fun!!! Hmm… I’m thinking her. Just because that picture is perpetually stuck in my mind. You could definitely be back up. Maybe we should all play a bunch of instruments like all the guys in Panic at the Disco. ^-^
So, like, we’d each have a turn to write? That’ll be hard ’cause I can’t discus it at all with you guys.

Luffles,
Clo

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